i am beyond disappointed. out of a possible 5 distinctions(A1/A2), i only got three. physics was never of any great importance to me so it doesnt count. i was grateful that i at least got a b3 for higher tamil considering i dont speak any tamil if i can help it(i'm not anti-tamil, i'm just not tamil-ly inclined..at all). english was a shocker..i didnt get an almost consistent A1 grade over 2 years just to get a 2 for the o levels..something is seriously messed up there. after all the effort i put into E math and even giving up doing the A math paper to concentrate on E math, i only got a 3. all that sacrifice for nothing. i worked my ass off for chem and i only got a 3 for that too..at least a 2 wouldn't have hurt so bad. my saving grace was my humanities..yet again. 1's for both lit and combined humans(ss/geog). do the math. i'm too bloody embarassed to put up what i got. lets just say i got 9 points as my net score.
the incredible letdown.
goodbye VJC.
more than anything, i got an ego bashing. people who were 30 pointers during the prelims got 14 points for the o's. and i shant say anything else cos i'll sound like some self righteous bitch.
and now i'm really really lost and confused. where to go, what to do.i feel so incredibly disconnected.
but as jac said, it was all fated and maybe God wanted it to happen this way and its all for my own good in the long run.
but all the disappointment i caused, just can't be ignored. to my parents, my family, my tuition teachers and friends who expected me to do well, i'm very sorry. you may not say it out loud, but i know you're thinking it too, cos i definitely am.
Hold up... hold on... don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on...
Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up... Come on... why you scared
You'll never change what been and gone
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